Monday, October 12, 2015

Washing the disciple's feet

Jesus really taught an amazing, awe-inspiring message when he washed the disciple's feet.  I've often read this passage and the time it takes to read through it, doesn't give justice to the importance of the event, or the time in which it must have taken Jesus to finish this back-breaking task.  I wonder how many hours it took to wash the feet of 12 men?  I also don't imagine that he skimped on washing any of disciple's feet, from the first to the last.  I know if I had stooped down to wash the feet of 12 men and to try them with a towel, I wouldn't have been able to stand up straight for some time after, and when I did finally straighten up, I'd have been holding my back and probably limping.  This was no easy task.  

It also not only took great humility for him to do it, because he also knew that these men who he was about to bestow such honor on, would soon betray him, deny him, and leave him to suffer alone, but I must say, it took great humility for them to endure letting him minister to them in such a way as well.  Even today, I know people who love to give, but have a hard time allowing others to do anything for them.  I'm sure some of the disciple's struggled with those feelings.  Even scripture records that Peter had that inclination. "Lord, you shall NEVER wash my feet!"  I can imagine the fear and shock in his voice as he sharply declined to allow the Lord to lower himself in such a manner.  It must have taken a certain dying to himself, in order to surrender to the washing. 

In the film I saw, the disciples were grappling over position.  Even the brothers, James and John were arguing about which one got to be on the right and which one on the left.  So these men were like every other human being in the world.  They all had ego, and desire to excel and to be loved, and to be special.  And our ego often, if not always, gets so tangled up in our calling, that we really don't know where one ends and the other begins.  Do we want our place in the presence of the Lord, because our ego really just wants to be special and we can be validated by God?  An honest person, who understands the human ego, will not be able to discern where one desire leaves off and the other begins.   But there is a way to divide asunder the joints and mire, thoughts and intents.

The calling for which the Spirit alone desires is not a calling of being special or having a place or position.  The calling for which the Spirit alone seeks, will be willing to be the lowest on the totem pole.  This individual will be a servant to all.  This individual will not get upset if they are overlooked, passed over, discounted, or thought inferior.  This individual won't defend their rights or their place or their "resume".  They won't try to exert their entitlement to the higher place or position.  They will in fact, give up their place and position to those "lower" than themselves.  They will condescend to men of lower estate.  They will esteem others better than themselves. 

They won't take the attitude that "Bless God, I'm the _________here, and you ought to recognize my authority and my position!"  But rather they will honor the least one as if they are the much greater than themselves.

What does it mean to "wash other's feet"?  Of course above and beyond actual, literal foot washing, is the principal of service.  Perhaps not taking the best or closest parking place, but leaving it for someone else could be an act of servitude.  To take time to listen to someone who wants to talk.  To do things that others need done.  To pick someone up for service. To take someone to the store or the pharmacy.  To babysit for someone who has a need.  To visit the sick or elderly.  To pick up paper you see laying on the floor.  To see a dirty toilet in the church, and clean it yourself rather than complaining or telling someone who's supposed to do that job.  Bottom line, it's to "See a need, Fill a need".   

To take the lowest position rather than the highest.  To work hard and sweat, and get worn out doing stuff that needs to be done, that your flesh and carnal mind says others ought to be doing!  Not to take the stance that I'm the expert, the superior, the teacher, or the "head", but to instead keep a low profile, even in high profile positions.  To be there not to reign, but to work, to serve, to support, to do what nobody else wants to do that needs to be done. 

The greatest in the Kingdom will be those willing to get a towel, stoop down, and humble themselves in service not only to the respectable, but also to the children, the poor, the unfaithful, the immature, and even to them who we know have or will betray us. 

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Why do Christians need a law to be moral?

The leopard chases the deer and catches him to eat him. A passing lion spots the deer in the leopard's mouth and chases the leopard and steals his deer. The leopard doesn't feel badly about killing and the lion doesn't go home feeling badly about his theft.

Morals are not something every creature is born with. We get our sense of morality from how we were raised, our society, and our religion. The 10 commandments is the foundation list of morals that God gave Jews thousands of years ago. The other nations were considered "heathens" because they engaged in sexual relations without restraint and were loose, wild, and undisciplined in all their ways. They could marry their own little daughter. These nations thought it was good to sacrifice their kids to volcanos and various "gods".

But God gave Abraham a whole different idea of morality. He said he HATED certain things, like sacrificing children. He forbid them to take their little daughters as wives or to sell them as sex slaves. There's a whole book full of laws that were unique to the descendants of Abraham. The other nations did not have these "morals".

OUR society, from Jews to Muslims, to Christians and many other religions, were all founded on the God of Abraham. Look it up, they are all called "Abrahamic Religions", meaning that they were birthed in the law and commandments given to Abraham.

You may feel that you were "born" with certain morals, but actually you were born into a society of certain morals. You parents and your school, your laws, your neighbors, everything you have ever known or heard has been one set of morals. Just like the food you eat, you might be disgusted to go to another country and eat dog or cat, because in your culture, that would be disgusting.

That is what people mean when they say that God authored our version of morality in this nation and many other nations in this world. Take away God and the bible, and our society would soon slide back into the loose, wild, heathen ways of the nations before Abraham. There would be no measuring stick. There would be nothing to line up to. We would all just decide for ourselves what is right and wrong, and as generations are born, that sense of right and wrong diminishes more and more.

For example, when I was young, being a homosexual was a perverted thing. This generations says it's okay. This generation would probably be disgusted at the idea of beastiality, but the next one may say "if you and your dog love each other, and enjoy having sex, then who is it hurting?!" The next generation will call you "haters" if you don't loosen your views of morality. 

There has to be some type of anchor, some sort of lighthouse.  If we're not going to use the bible, and the 10 commandments, then what will we use?  If we live by the saying "if it feels good, do it", then there is no end to the immorality that will result.  Perhaps you personally have a good enough sense of morality, but what about the upcoming generations?  Every new generation shocks the previous generation with their lack of morality, respect, and adherence to whatever the former generation deemed important or valuable.  They question all authority. 

So without any guidelines, we (this nation and the generations that will follow) would just go further and further into darkness. 

Desperately seeking God's perfect will

June 8, 2015

I spend a great deal of time seeking God's will in everything.  I'm learning that I am spending "too" much time in it.  The problem is not that I "ask".  The problem is that I "fret".  I ask and get frustrated when I don't get a solid word from the Lord. 

But today my husband had to go to South Haven.  I was at home and he asked if I wanted to go.  I didn't "inquire" of the Lord whether to go or not.  But of course if I had felt quickened "not to go", I sure would have stayed home!  But I didn't receive anything on it.  I could have stayed or I could have gone.  As long as God wasn't tapping on my shoulder about it, it was within the range of authority given to me in my life, to choose what I wanted to do. 

If God had dealt with me to stay home and I went anyway, pushing past my conscience, then it would have been disobedience, and "sin" for me to go to South Haven!   In that case, leaving out of my house would have been leaving out from under the covering of God, subjecting myself to any hurt, harm, or danger that may have been lurking out there for me because I left out from under his covering.  Then I would have opened myself up to whatever evil his "fence" was keeping from me.  Because the fence of God is my protection.

But since there was no warning, no word, then I was free to choose for myself.  It was up to me. 

And as I thought on that today, I realized that a lot of what we do is up to us!  As long as we are not hearing God tell us to "STOP!", then we can keep moving!  I can trust and have faith that I am operating beneath the covering of God in everything that I am doing, because he has not told me NOT to do it. 

If I want the store, then do it.  If there is any future situation that will make it a hole I've dug myself into, then God knows and I'm pretty sure he would not want me to get dug into a hole.  But if he allows me to do this, then it should be further testimony to me that my future is not as bleak looking as my fear would describe for me! 

Jesus said "Go to the other side".  He didn't say you wouldn't have to endure a storm, but if you wouldn't have made it to the other side, then surely he wouldn't have let you enter the boat in the first place! 

Thank you Lord for this word today. 

Monday, August 25, 2014

How I pray -August 25, 2014

The Lord impressed me this morning to write about prayer.  Here are some things that began to flow to my mind about my own prayer and how God has dealt with me.

  1. What I don't pray about: 
    1.  I rarely pray about material things.  God knows what I have need of and what is best for me and it is my belief that when I am in his perfect will, he will bless me.  At times I may be concerned about particular problems or needs and ask God for direction or answers in regards to those problems, but my prayer is not directed at asking for material things. 
    2. I don't try to "convince" God or dictate to God, or rouse God or provoke him, or tell God.  God already knows and God has a will that He is perfectly capable of carrying out.  My efforts are not to direct God, like he is a powerful speeding bullet that I'm attempting to aim through prayer at an intended target!  No.  God is fully in control of HIS universe and my silly declarations and demands are foolish in His sight.  When I pray, I'm not to be in "dispute" with God.  But rather my endeavor in prayer is asking God to assist my understanding as he is working to mold my thinking, and conform my will to His will.  I do not hurl petitions at God's throne as if to demand anything.  I believe the right way to come before God is "asking", "seeking", and "knocking" with humility and thanksgiving, not "telling", "commanding", "whining", "begging", and "demanding".    If I may add this note here:  I am convinced that whining and complaining to God in prayer opens the door to evil spirits.  It's a very dangerous ground to tread upon.  I try to make sure that whatever I am praying about, that I am not in any sense whining or complaining. 
    3. I also do not pray like I'm standing in a "good" place and praying for all those who are not faithful, who are not doing their job or living up to their potential (as if I am).  I do not pray "down" to others.  I do not pray condescendingly about others.  But rather, the standpoint of prayer ought to be that we are all in the same stinking human boat.  We all smell fishy.  We are all sinking.  We are all out in the middle of an ocean with no paddle.  We are all bound to die without God's intervention.  It is not "Oh God, help that unfaithful brother to be more faithful".  Which implies that I must think I am faithful or else I'd be praying for my own unfaithfulness first and foremost.  So it is "Oh God help all of us to be what you have called us to be: whether faithful or loving or patient or humble or wherever we are each lacking, for we are all indeed lacking in some area, but you have put a desire inside of each of us to live for you".  Some may be doing better or worse in various areas at different times, but none of us have reached a place of being "better" than anyone else.  And we all go through what Bro. Gunter termed our "6 o'clock".  Somewhere in the world, it's 6 o'clock.  It may not be 6 o'clock for me right now, but it will get here if I keep on living.  So my chastisement or humiliation may not be here right now, but I'd better not get haughty or high minded over someone else' chastisement or humiliation or correction or whatsoever, because mine is coming, as sure as 6 o'clock and it will be much harder for me to endure if I have been haughty towards my brother or sister.  So when I pray for others, I pray for all of us that are in the same boat. 
    4. I also don't pray as a leader of a group.  If someone asks me to pray somewhere, I do so, not as a leader, but just as one of the crowd.  Based of what I've seen, I don't believe that praying "out loud" is a good idea for just everyone.  Jesus warned about the Sadducees prayers.  Praying out loud is primarily a ministerial function because it tends to be authoritative.  Also because the person praying is mindful of listeners, it tends to not be a genuine prayer to God.  The person praying can believe that they are praying for the will of God on the people, but God may see how caught up they are in their own agenda, and not having the mind of Christ.  Therefore it is not good for a woman to lead prayer.  If women are together, it's better if they all pray together, none trying to be louder than another nor draw any attention to themselves over another.  Their voice shouldn't be louder than the rest of the sisters.  Their manifestations shouldn't be efforts to draw attention to themselves. And their words ought not to be contrived eloquence to make others pay attention.  Women should pray as equal sisters in Christ and any sister who seeks to excel over another should refer to the rule of thumb that if you seek to be great, you should strive to be the least and servant to all.  Services are often called to order by the prayer of the Ministry, who speak as the mouth of God and this is their calling and position, so prayers that lead and call people to order ought to be done by the Ministry. 
  2. What I do pray about: 
    1. I pray for God to change my wicked ways; my thoughts; and my mindsets.  I recognize that in order for God to do this, He will use circumstances, my health, and people.  I pray for him to assist me in understanding what he is trying to show me through all the difficulties I encounter so that I can change and avoid further difficulties if possible.  I know that mindsets are embedded into my understanding, my opinions, and my character traits due to my experiences and many other factors.  I recognize that it takes God to dig deep and alter those mindsets as needed, and meanwhile I need God's grace to walk as He is directing me to walk, without rebelling or getting discouraged, until He accomplishes change in my thinking.
    2. I also "listen".  When thoughts, circumstances, or people come to my mind, I talk to God about them and if the Spirit is present to cover that topic, I continue to pray about it, but if the prayer is "dry", then I move on to something else.  I don't try to force God to talk about what He is not interested in talking about with me.  I try to find the topic that He wants to talk to me about.  And I also often pray for God to bring to my mind what it is he wants me to pray about and to lead me in prayer. 
    3. More than anything, I pray for God's will.  I pray for God's direction.  I pray that when I don't hear a clear word or see a clear vision, for God to just somehow let me stumble upon the perfect path- because He is clearly able to do that.  I pray for God to open my ears to hear his voice in the service, in the songs, in the minister's words.  I pray for God to let me spiritually see what He is doing, and not be blinded by my human reasoning.  I pray for God to veto the will of my flesh in favor of His will in my life and in everything I do and to correct me, to cleanse me, and to infuse his thinking into my corrupted thinking and renew me. 
    4. I love God and I thank God for everything, for everything is working for my good because I belong to Him.  I let God know that I appreciate His calling on my life.  I tell Him often that He is my reason for living.  He is my everything.  He is my life.  There is nothing, no hope, no purpose, no reason, no life, no joy, no expectation- all is vanity without him.  Everything I am or ever hope to be, will be GOD.  I'm not capable, mentally or physically of doing anything good, or great, or worthy of any importance on my own.  I have no awesome words to speak.  I have no excellent wisdom to express.  All my "best" is filthy rags.  But God is able to use me, and even "I" am impressed!  I think about some of the words to the songs that just came to me, and I sang them, and I think "wow!  I would have never thought to come up with that".  But he just gave it to me.  I think of some of the things He's taught me, and how much higher the understanding is than that which I had, and I'm just filled with adoration for God.  Thinking this in prayer one day, I wrote the song "Lord I love the work that you're working in my life.  And I love all the ways that you've changed me! and I love this path that you've caused me to walk upon.  I love you, Lord, and I love what you're doing in my life!".  
Well that's part 1 of  My Prayer Life.  I'll add to it as the Lord leads me. 

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Plodding Along - Jan 28, 2010 revised August 6, 2014

Remember the ad for the Easy Button?  I wish there was a Decision Button, that we could use to make decisions permanent.

Want to stop overeating? Just program in the decision, press "forever" and voila! You will never overeat again in your entire life because you made the permanent decision not to!  You could do the same to stop smoking, drinking, lying, or any bad habits!

Think how different the world would be!   New Year's Resolutions would be a sure deal.  Creditors wouldn't have to worry about anyone ever defaulting and marriage vows would be a guarantee of life-long companionship!  Alas, in reality, decisions are made, un-made, and revised every day, all the time, for every weather,  according to every mood, and depending on every circumstance and feeling. 

When I was obese, how often I would get so disgusted with myself and my weight that I would declare my decision to "eat only 500 calories a day!!"  or "Fast every day except Tuesday!" and at the time I seriously meant it.   But those "decisions" were based on rash, emotional, excited, and desperate feelings and circumstances.  It was the sprint of the hare speaking, and not the plodding of the turtle.      

Losing weight is a good example of certain decisions that cannot be done by making a rash, "determined" choice. There is no concrete to set the decision in to make it "stick". It's a slow process that will go through many different days, moods, encounters, and circumstances upon which the same decision must be repeatedly made again and again.  No matter how determined you are "today", you will inevitably fail if you cannot maintain that same determination every day, all day long.   So to lose weight, you must forget about the end result and focus instead on one day at a time life changes that you want to do "today" to a certain end.  You will then have to make more similar decisions tomorrow, but it's a walk, not a sprint and you will most likely not see any results for a very long time. 

If it seems like life is against us, it is. Life is a battle. Flesh is enmity against God. This is warfare we are fighting. And we can't win by brute strength. 

No matter how fast you run, it will take your whole life to run this race!  You might as well get your gear and prepare for the long haul.  Don't take off flying without having your running shoes on  because you won't last.  All that will do is cause discouragement and make you think that you can't possibly run that fast for the rest of your life and you can't.  Thankfully, we're not judged by how fast or slow we go, but by whether we kept on going, and endured to the end.  This is not a sprint, it's a daily walk, a vision of where we want to head towards. 

We're not trying to "get there" in one sprint.  We're plodding our course in that direction and we are making traveling to that destination our new lifestyle.  We sell out of our past habits and we buy into whatever will further our journey towards this new destination like one would sell their house that keeps them in California and buy a motorhome because their new course and journey is to travel towards New York.  And we continue to travel in that direction for the rest of our lives. 
 
When I fail, I get back up; when I'm discouraged, I keep plodding along anyhow; when I'm winning, I keep going, when I'm losing, I refuse to give up.  I have counted the cost of living this new life and I have made the necessary arrangements in my lifestyle to afford it, and to pay it every day.   Every day in sunshine or rain, I'm plodding along, little by little, day by day, waiting, hoping, winning, failing and always getting up, over and over again.   

This is the only way to win.